BEING THE SKINNY GIRL ISN'T ALWAYS EASY - UNDER THE SURFACE #3

"And I said to my body. Softly. 'I want to be your friend.' It took a long breath. And replied, 'I have been waiting my whole life for this.'"

A lot of people will probably not like this post, think I'm bragging or that I'm ungrateful.
I would like to write a little disclaimer first; I'm not bragging, ungrateful or anything like that. I love my body, because I've accepted it. I love all kinds of bodies, thick, thin, curvy etc. they're all beautiful. This is just based on my own experience, and it's something that I would like to put some more focus on....
(I am not going to be saying any numbers in this blogpost, as that can be triggering for some people.)

Not being able to gain weight....
I've always been the thin girl. Simply because I couldn't gain weight. I started gaining a bit of weight when I was about 14 years old, obviously because my body was starting to change because of puberty. But I was very thin. I couldn't really see it back then, because that was just how my body looked. I couldn't really understand why I was suddenly gaining weight, and it seemed so weird to me. So I started eating less, and working out more.
Later on, I found out how bad I was treating my body, and thankfully, I got help to get out of it before it got out of hand. I got a lot of comments on how my body looked (I'll go more into detail, later on in this post), and suddenly I saw how thin I was, and now looking back, I looked sickly thin. So I started eating better and still working out. But now, working out to get stronger, bigger and healthier. I've found out that working out is my way of gaining weight, which is fine for me, because working out for me is stress relief.

The struggle of finding something that fits....
It was and still is, a nightmare to find clothes. Especially jeans, shorts, skirts etc. I cannot count how many times I have had to use a safety pin, to make it fit around my hips. Or how many jeans I've tried on that just didn't fit. (I am only 158 cm. as well, so that's not making it easier.)
When I was younger, I always cried because I couldn't fit into any of the clothes I wanted or tried on. I would always wear dresses, because that was the only thing that i could fit in to.
Now it has gotten a bit easier, but still i can use 3 whole weekends on finding just one pair of jeans that fits me, but that is also because of my height. I'm so happy that there is coming more focus on petite girls, sites as asos have a 'petite' section, which just makes life so much easier.

The never-ending comments....
This is a thing that really gets to me, because I don't think it's okay to comment (rude) on someones weight or bodytype. These comments some may not find offensive, but for someone who has gotten them their whole life, it's fucking annoying and not okay. I'm just going to list up some of the common comments that I've gotten past the years, and even answer them....
- "Why do you even workout, when you're so thin? You don't need it." - When do you need to workout? Is there a certain number that you reach on the scale, and then you have to workout? I don't think so. And i workout because I like to take care of my body, and working out makes me happy. Is that okay? Is it okay that I do something that I like, does my weight really limit me from doing what I like?
- "Eat more mcdonalds / You should eat more junkfood!" - That is my very own choice, not yours. Please, let me eat what I want to. And yes, sometimes i eat junkfood, but I'm fine with the amount that I'm eating. 
- "Do you have a eating disorder?" - No I don't. And if I had I probably wouldn't tell you, if you aren't one of my best friends or family, because it's a very personal and hard thing to deal with.
- "You're too skinny" - What is the definition of too skinny and too fat? It's my body.
- "I'm scared to break you, hahaha" - But you probably won't break me, and you should know that?....
- "You look like a stick" - I find it weird that you really had urge to say that.
Please understand that words hurt.

Skinny-shaming is just as bad as fat-shaming. Our bodies are beautiful as they are, so please don't shame others bodies, they probably already have enough to deal with. Be nice <3

I'm finally in a point in my life where I know that I'm good enough, and I love my body. Because it works perfectly fine, and it does what it needs to do, and what more could I ask for? I'm so privileged to have a body that works perfectly fine, so way should I spend my whole life hating it?

Love you <3
xx Thea